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Thu, 06 Oct 2005 03:37:44 GMT

ST. AUGUSTINE HIGH SCHOOL'S HOMECOMING DANCE WILL BE HELD IN THE PARKING LOT OF QUALCOMM STADIUM.

HOW MANY OF YOU OLP GIRLS WANNA GO TO HOMECOMING NOW? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA suckers.

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 18:43:12 GMT

i went on this heart walk in balboa park that was raising money for heart disease. my mom lied, she said we were running. it was nice i guess, balboa park is nice

last night i fell asleep on the phone with ommar again. and then i hazily remember waking up and sending him a text message: "sorry i fell asleep, i love you". i checked the message status and it said i sent it to robert clayton lyons. hahahahahah woooops.

there's a western themed dance tonight, yeeeeeehaw. too bad i'm not going. see some of you at ground zero?

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. sexy as hell. Active in games and interactions. Always the best at what you do. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy

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Sat, 17 Sep 2005 02:51:57 GMT

built up anticipation and excitement over nothing sucks.

kellens car is the funnest.

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Mon, 12 Sep 2005 02:36:06 GMT

picture post

all pictures taken from ERIN AND LAUREL'S photobucket

the flower children

sophisticated lady. "hey celeste, do you think christina washed her hair today?"

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rochelle and erin are beeeeautiful

the socials call them yovis and yanu

momma and child

buuuuhhh?

yeea boy

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Sun, 11 Sep 2005 04:15:55 GMT

i'm getting ready to cleanse myself of sea world's grime.

love is not kissing, hugging, hand holding, notes, boyfriend, girlfriend, phone calls, baby talk, gifts, embracing, someone you showcase to all your friends, intimacy, typical, cute pictures, jealousy. love never dies. if it does, then it was never real. love is letting your gaurd down, being yourself 100%, your safety blanket, the lines around your mouth when you smile, the emptiness you feel when they drive away, relief, waking up to pillows and hoping one day it might be them. it is your first, last, and always.
i am too young.

"the cure for pain is in the pain"

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Sat, 10 Sep 2005 16:09:07 GMT

don't yell at me for going to a football game for fifteen or twenty minutes. yeah yeah yeah, i wasted five bucks. but add up all the money at all the games you always go to. you're paying five dollars everynight to stand around and socialize with your friends when can very well be somewhere else having 2304823945873495 better of a time.

sea world today with ma famille. hmm...
i guess i'm going to the my american heart cd release next saturday?
um okay bye

i'll still go out and get ice cream with you, even though you get it all over my face.
:)

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Thu, 08 Sep 2005 04:49:08 GMT

today was picture day and this morning someone spilled coffee all over my skirt. so i reeked of coffee all day. and another girl asked me if i lost weight and i said yes. she said i looked sick.

"everything was wrong so we sang sentimental songs"

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Wed, 07 Sep 2005 01:54:59 GMT

shut the crap up already. grow up, i'm tired of your childish non-sense. you think you're so funny hardy har har har. no ones laughing except you and if there are people who are laughing, they're laughing at you and your idiocy. and what is this with people thinking i'm mean. i am sarcastic and i joke around, don't take every single word i say seriously. i happen to think i am nice, for the most part. who gives a crap if you think i'm mean anyway. the whole world doesn't love you, the whole world definitely doesn't love me. i got over that and i think you should to.

why am i still in a bad mood?
hey wait, tomorrow is hump day.
shut up you pervs

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Mon, 05 Sep 2005 06:07:55 GMT

god i probably have the worst possible timing, ever. picture building up the confidence to take on your greatest fear and you're so close to doing it, but then something happens. something comes up. something is more important. you realize maybe you're just being selfish. something makes you doubt yourself. for now you'll have to push it back further in the back of your mind, just like last time. maybe in a couple days we can come back to it and try all over again. days, weeks, months. my problem isn't all that important, petty, maybe. maybe a little more than that. it's something that could have easily been taken care of months ago. so what am i still doing here? what am i so afraid of? i'm in a foreign country reading a map that's upside down.

i have no idea what i'm talking about anymore.

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Mon, 05 Sep 2005 03:40:43 GMT

so finally when hollis and i have some mode of transportation that isn't our parents we have nothing to do, no where to go, no one to see and everything is closed since it's sunday.

give 'em the horn.
i am in a bad mood again, thank god for teenage drama.

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Sun, 04 Sep 2005 09:19:24 GMT

woooooo i'm on the phone with amandaaaaa. i was tired for like a second and almost fell asleep, but then i called ze amandarrrrcarrrrrawrrrrr. we're talking about girls we hate and gossip and shit talk and how gay boys can be. ugh what a horrible way to end the night THANK YOU. not you amanda. anyway, today was kind of fun and random and kind of depressing. panic in duh fuggin streets. your fiiiingerrrrrrrr tiiiiipppppssssssssss on myyyyyyyyyyyyyy lippppppppppppssssssssssssssssssssssssssss and evvvveryyyyyyywwwwwwwhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeere is thiiis yo sweeeet sixteeeen bblahblahblah.

i'd like to un-meet a few people, if that's possible.

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Sun, 04 Sep 2005 00:37:03 GMT

copeland october 22nd :)

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Sat, 03 Sep 2005 03:33:30 GMT

SO, i started school on monday and this week has been somewhat tuff. i can already tell it's only going to get worse. mmm no more random trips anywhere after school, no more putting off homework until the night before, no more putting off homework until fifteen minutes before school starts, no more procastination. i think my life is going to suck for the next nine months. oh school, i looooooove yoooooou.

oh frig frag. i really miss someone.

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Thu, 25 Aug 2005 17:58:49 GMT

yea boy.

who's getting a 60gb photo ipod? ME! finally.

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Wed, 24 Aug 2005 20:22:10 GMT

les photos d'hier au monde de mer.

it all started out here

jack in the box

on the road

fun fun fun

sup frizz

wow

:)

fin

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Tue, 23 Aug 2005 19:22:26 GMT

oh gosh. yesterday was definitely an adventure. i think robbie is my favorite driver he's freaking hilarious. yesterday myself, ommar, tess, amanda, christina, christoper, and robert lyons spent most of our day at sea world. it all started out at mikies house for thee winded band practice. brommar left for the dentist and rob, christina, amanda, and chris drove allll the way to mikes house, in the middle of nowhere chula vista, to pick me up. i told them to get off east h street and instead they decided to stare at a man on a motorcycle with a mad handlebar mustache and miss the exit. instead of doing the smart thing, getting off and turning around at the next exit, they drove until they go to the last US exit. then they had to drive another fifteen minutes on H and started freaking out because they thought they were driving to jamul. it's not my fault it took you three hours to get to mikes house. getting off the right exit would have saved you an hour. so they finally picked me up and they were hungry so we went to jack in the box in the terra nova shopping center off H st. chris was screaming like a retard for four tacos (seriously). giving the woman our order was so tuff we had to pull up to the fist window. finally after we ordered we had to sit in the parking lot while they made our food and robbie decided to strike up a conversation with some girls wearing gucci sunglasses haha. FINALLY at around 4 o'clock we were on the road to sea world (we were supposed to all meet at 2). while we were driving through the parking lot robbie ran over a bunch of cones hahahahahaha. so freaking funny. ommar and tess met up with as at around 6. the highlight of our day at sea world was probably when rob, christina, chris, tess, and amanda decided to ride shipwreck rapids at 10 at night and rob put my mewithoutyou shirt on. you won't understand how hilarious it was until you see the pictures. which will be up sooooooooooooon.

okay i'm done byeeeeeeeeee

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Sun, 21 Aug 2005 05:43:06 GMT

hmm you think you're really smart don't you? you think you know the beginning, the end, and everything in between. that sucks, but it's okay.

today was good. tiring, but good. i almost bought another pair of shoes, good thing i didn't. walking across the baseball fields by miramar on a full moon with ommar, jamie, and hollis is fun. not really. sike. you wish. sea world on monday with rob, amanda, tess, christina, and chris? quite possibly ommar? that's going to be THE JAM.

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Sat, 20 Aug 2005 03:42:45 GMT

YEAH!!!

WOOP WOOP

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Thu, 18 Aug 2005 18:04:17 GMT

i should stop whining
it's only been a day or two.

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Thu, 18 Aug 2005 17:31:42 GMT

so last night my aunt and uncle from temecula stayed over at my house and this morning i was standing in the kitchen eating.

my aunt: did you lose weight?
me: yes.
aunt: what have you been doing?
me: nothing.
aunt: yeah you don't look chubby anymore.
me: WHAT I WAS CHUBBY?????
aunt: yeah, baby fat.
me: WHY DIDN'T ANYONE SAY ANYTHING????

i was chubby? what no i wasn't. was i?

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Wed, 17 Aug 2005 21:15:40 GMT

Live at the House of Blues San Diego:
SAVES THE DAY

November 30th

f yes.

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Wed, 17 Aug 2005 05:00:12 GMT

you know those days when you spend time with people you really love and you feel like everything is just perfect and even if your house burned down you'd be okay as long as you could stay in that one special moment forever?

today was one of those days.

I gave the other half of the moon to you so you wouldn't forget me while you're gone.

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Sat, 13 Aug 2005 20:59:31 GMT

so last night was THEE winded. the party was boraaaaang but i saw people who i haven't seen in a long time. so s'okay. and i saw ommmmmmmrrraaaarrwwwwwwaaaaraaawr. uuuuuuhhhhhhhhhh he's the most amazing thing to walk the planet. i love.

oi4uwrej sfderrrrr i'm in temecula. where it's hot hot HOT.

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Thu, 11 Aug 2005 17:46:10 GMT

tell all the stones we're gonna make a building.

life is not a movie. not everything always falls into place. the right things aren't always said at the perfect times. THE guy doesn't always get the girl. your feelings aren't scripted into your life. so don't feel sorry for feeling a certain way about someone. you don't wake up in the morning and say to yourself "i'm going to hate her today" "i'm going to have a crush on him today" "hmm today is good, i want to be depressed today". every moment is moment to learn and grow from.

i've learned that being sarcastic will weaken friendships, and what have you, twice. being closed and shut off about my feelings doesn't help anyone. getting jealous is like running in place. and holding back only causes me regret.

loads of pictures; just because i feel like it.
i really miss my bro's and brohoe's

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Tue, 09 Aug 2005 22:26:06 GMT

today i was on myspace and found five people who were 100% negative about pretty much everything. i can't describe how sick i am of people who are just so god damned negative. and people who try to put everyone else down with their theories on what life is all about. stop telling me i'm a copy of a copy of a copy. i am special and unique in my own way and so are you. if you are too blind to see that, then i am truely sorry for you. quit making the world out to be some big bad place. if your mom seriously thought it was as bad as you describe it, she would have an abortion to save you. or because she hates you. but i doubt that's the case. the world has so much to offer you. it's what you do with it that matters. i happen to think this place is beautiful. flawed, yes. try and find me something beautiful that isn't. it's impossible. nothing is perfect and neither are you, so get over yourself. we all have a ton of problems that bring us way down. but at the end of every day you should stop to consider yourself lucky. a home, friends who love and care for you (whether you believe it or not), food, clothes, running water, and a computer to read this.

SMILE.

if you still can't accept people and the world for what they are. bite me.

"you strip the joy out of their souls with all of your rules."

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SMILE.

Live at the House of Blues San Diego:
SAVES THE DAY